Emotions Galore

As I prepare to leave my Mom and Dad's home, I am filled with lots of emotions. It's harder to leave without being able to hug and kiss Mom and say, "I love you. See you soon." And even harder that I don't get to hear, "I love you" back.

It's hard to leave my siblings who I've been able to spend time with. At the same time, I'm grateful to feel so much love and support from those I'm so closely related to.

It's hard to leave when there's so much more to be done and I don't think I will be able to return very soon. I thought I would get so much done, but I feel like we didn't make much of a dent in the "To Do" list that Laura, Rex, and I put together 2 weeks ago. In hindsight, I know we were busy all the time and that we spent our time and energy on what seemed most important at the time.

It's hard to leave Megan and Weston who I can actually be with by only a short drive. I got to sit in on one of her classes; she's an awesome teacher! And I got to watch him make some great moves in an intramural soccer game. (His team won.)

And hard to leave just a few days before Amy, Scott, and their little ones are coming and I could spend time with them again. We had such a great time when they were here a couple of weeks ago and I didn't get enough.

On the flipside, I feel a longing to be with Roger. It's been harder to mourn without him next to me. I can't wait to be with him again.

I'm also excited to stop and see Cheryl and her family on my way home, We're going to work on some projects and I want to get some more Grandma time.

Going home means it's getting closer to being with Ryan, Melanie and their family for Jared's baptism - YEA!!!

And right after that we hope to have a visit from David, Belky, and their sweethearts, something that might not happen very often for a while.

As I've typed this, I've come to the conclusion that the biggest emotion I feel is GRATITUDE, and if I focus on that I'll make it through. That's what my mom would do.